You probably seem to yourself to be a believer, even if you are a believer in disbelief.
But you cannot really believe in anything until you are aware of the process by which you arrived at your position.
Before you do this you must be ready to postulate that all your beliefs may be wrong, that what you think to be belief may only be a variety of prejudice caused by your surroundings — including the bequest of your ancestors for whom you may have a sentiment.
True belief belongs to the realm of real knowledge.
Until you have knowledge, belief is mere coalesced opinions, however it may seem to you.
Coalesced opinions serve for ordinary living. Real belief enables higher studies to be made.